A journey through grief

Life seemed to melt
As humbly I knelt
On the edge of a shore
Where I’d been before…

…At dawn, or was it dusk?

Sadness prevails
Which only unveils
The reason I’ve come
To this place once again

Moonlit reflections
Pose as faint recollections
Of happiness in times past
I wonder, why didn’t it last?

Questions haunt me
Like memories, flaunting glee
With past joys emerging as history
A dread for the future creeps in

Bewildered I sit there
Reminiscing his being here
Wondering why he was taken
And not I

Shivering cold
Desperately trying to hold
The pieces of this fragile life

I grasp at the wind
Wishing it would lend
Some carefree
With grief-wasted me

Moments drag long
And I have no song
Years slip right past
In a blur of cherished lasts

Hope steadily alights
After many dark nights
I desperately try to write 
Until finally, I give up the fight

Slowly, and unsure
Unknowingly, I find its allure
Out with darkness
I bask in lights’ caress.

Tears, they still flow
But I undergo
A changed heart and mind
As truth slowly unwinds.

Grief and joy have intertwined.


Written in memory of my handsome brother, Isaac Nathan Coates (1989-2008) who we miss more than words can say.

5 Replies to “A journey through grief”

  1. I’m thinking of you today as you remember and miss Isaac. God bless you with grace to keep on living and loving well!

  2. I couldn’t help but connect this post with a line in the previous post saying, “There’s nothing sweeter to see than a brother doting on his little sister”…. *Tears* and lots of hugs to you today, Gretta dear. He loved you so much.

  3. I remembered. And my heart ached for you. You’ve blessed me in the ways that His light shines thru you.

    p.s. I’m excited about this new place.

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